Diary Entries, Winter of 1986

Depressed and stumped on what to write today, I'm just gonna cheat and revisit past diaries from 1986 - starting with today's date 24 years ago. I was in 8th grade.

Eighth grade graduation, June 1986

Monday, January 20, 1986

You know if we won the lottery how happy everyone would be? I wish we could. [We obviously never did. I may have written this because a family from our church with two kids in our school won twice! What's more --  the father was a physician, as if they really needed to win twice?!]

We didn't have any school today. I hate school so much. I hate my whole life. I lost my best friend, Dan. [Apparently every entry says this, yet Danny and I were close until 1994 so this probably was just a spat]  

I can't stand my Mom, Dad and brother. I wish I could do something to make everyone love me. I wish me and Danny could patch things up.

I bought fake nails yesterday they cost $3.49! I also got nail polish in a stick. [That shit didn't work, it was nail polish in a pen like applicator, they still make them and they still suck!]

I think the only major problem with my life is that one minute I'm having the best time and then the next I hate everyone. My dad hates me. I'm the worst thing that ever happened to my parents. [This obviously is not true, typical teen angst.] I wish I could disappear into thin air that way everyone's life would be perfect not like mine.

I wish life was like a TV show. I wish life was like Family Ties or Growing Pains or something. 

PS I LOVE SEAN ASTIN!

Monday, January 27, 1986

Today Sister told us what parts we had in the play [12 Angry Men]. I'm Juror 12 which sucks, I wanted 7 but Danny got it. [It always pained me that I got the smallest role or a bystander role in our school performances and class plays. I was the only kid in school who wanted to be an actress. I was the only kid who spent summers at acting camp and the teachers knew this. It was just the typical Catholic school slap in the face of who you knew and who your family was. If you were one of 10 kids and every one of them had gone through the school, you were treated much differently. Think about it, it comes down to money. 10 kids=10 tuitions.]

I've been lifting Dad's weights about every day for 15 minutes. I'd like to build some muscles in my arms. [Totally do not remember this, and did I honestly think 15 minutes was going to cut it?]

It's snowing hard. Oh I hope we don't have school tomorrow!

Tuesday, January 28, 1986 

The space shuttle exploded today killing 7 crew members. One was a school teacher. It was so sad. [ I blogged about this event.]

I told Danny about him not being fun anymore.

We had school today. There's about 1/2 a foot of snow, maybe 3 inches [geez, big diff!]